we have moved!

Now as many of you understand moving is far from easy for our Aspies. The change is hard for everyone but so much harder if you like things to stay the same and you feel safe in your comfort zone.

The move was big! a new country! a few days driving to get there!!

My hat goes off to my son who really not only kept it together for the whole drive but also for the few weeks of mad packing. For me the hard bit was getting him to keep things. You see the throw his heart and soul into sorting and throwing everything away. I found it so hard to get him to keep things he may want later on. That is 180 degrees turn around from normal and looking back it should have rang an alarm bell. He was ‘coping’ far too well. I was so wrapped up in the move and the packing I lost sight of how he was feeling.

We had talked a lot about the move before hand, now that was good but the reality is so different. The stress he was feeling was bottled up. If you like it was showing in the way he throw everything out!! I just failed to connect the dots.

Now we have been here for around one month and the stress is showing. So we are working on de-stress, this is with massage, structured days, plenty of talking about subjects he loves. Getting a new doctor who understands my son and his medication. Allowing for the days when he is low.

There is an up side 🙂 we have a few really…. 🙂

  1. Showering has become a no problem area. Now I have waited a long time for that to happen!
  2. Working on his online courses, that has become a really good out let and he has fallen in love with computer languages. The hard bit is how to get him to stop working and have down time.
  3. A new doctor that cares and knows what they are on about! the good bit is I really think he is getting the care he needs and both my son and the doctor are doing a medication review 🙂 🙂
  4. The chance to change his daily routine to one that offers adult structure for his day. As he throw out nearly all his childhood things.
  5.  For my son one benefit is faster internet speed.
  6. He has his own bathroom.

So while we have a lot of changes, some planned, some not. He is working well through them and I hope we see more personal growth towards adult life and interests. For now we will work on settling into a new home and having structure allowing for my son to settle.

A hard few months

We have had a hard few months this end, sadly my sons dog Pippa passed away. My son has not come to terms with it at all!
He has started to get depressed and wants to spend far too much time sleeping. I guess we will cope in the end but its hard to see his pain so sad for him. It puts my grief on hold.
Not that there is such things as good news BUT my son was the best with his dog for her last day. He stayed with her right to the end and he buried her. Now I was crying a lot! but he kept saying ‘not now, hold on for Pippa’s sake’ I am blown away by the depth of his compassion, by his strength at such a sad time.
He made Pippa number one, and held her through it all. What a man he is becoming! the love and total control he had that day was far more than me, far stronger than me.
He wrote a lovely note on his Facebook page about his dog as well.
I feel that his love for that wonderful dog has shined up his life in far more ways than I can count.
Now with his loss he has retreated, sad most of the time and needing to learn about bereavement. One step at a time we will get there but for now he needs space, time to heal.
Would I have a dog like her again for a child like him? YES! in a heart beat. He has gained far more from that dog/boy bond than I could ever teach him. Even the sad things like bereavement. Something I would love him not to know but we all know that death comes to everyone and a sad fact that we all have to learn to live with it at points in our lives.

Christmas is coming

Now over the years I have got to hate Christmas, as for my son, the changes that this holiday gave were too much for him. I hated the bright lights, loud music, and massive change of routine. My son would have so many melt downs and it got to a place where I not only dreaded the season, but was angry at so many people who just didn’t get what we would go through. At home the tree was a focus of his upset, decorations were torn down as fast as I put them up.
Once while I was moaning to his psychologist about how upset he was over the Christmas holiday. She told me to take off half the tree decorations, stop any flashing lights, stick to his routine (such as it was!) and tell her how that went. I felt I had been pushed aside, no real help give. Still I did what she had said, I took down half the tree’s decorations. I only put the lights on a soft glow for a short while each night. Took down most the rooms decorations and all the shiny ones. I kind of hoped she would be wrong, but you know what….. Magic happened, calm descended on our home. Melt downs were greatly reduced. I had a tree and decorations but these didn’t upset my son! My daughter had decorations up without the whole fights with her brother.
I guess I want to share that just because things have been/can be really hard, doesn’t mean that they will always stay hard. We did a small (in the great scheme of things) change and from that day our Christmas’s have improved. They have become what I wanted, a time of family and peace.
Now the kids are not kids, but in fact young adults, it is easier again. We sit around and plan what we want to do, and eat, who cares if he wants a curry or pancakes! and decorate with mostly happy results. I just want to say if Christmas is a hard time of year for you and your family, seek help, share ideas that help and support families, if you know they are having a hard time.
If you are the one having a hard time, know your not alone and you all do come out the other side, tired, yes, but you come through it. Make small changes that work for you and your family, forget the rest.
Plan with your ASD person in mind and allow yourself time off from trying too hard. That is the best thing I ever did over the Christmas and it has got better and better as the years have rolled on.

Adult children

I some times feel that having an adult child can be really hard. While he has all the ages for anything from marriage to the vote (UK laws) He is not able to do so many day to day things. I get such mixed emotions of where and how to get him to gain skills. Where is the line between his choice and my wish for him to gain in life skills and independence?
WOW! I think that it can be harder now than when he was a child.
What’s your views? How do you feel an adult should progress? I would love to hear from you.
My son always seems keen at first and then after a few weeks we go down hill, not back to the beginning but not far off.
To gain a balance is hard work. How do you cope? Drop me a line I would love to know your views.

Talking can help

I was lucky enough to have a really good talk with my daughter this weekend. I shared with her what is getting me so upset.
As she is five years older than my son, she has a good handle on how he has grown up and how life has been for us all.
She reminded me of how we were building a soft playroom come safe-room, as his temper was just so bad in those days, how we had no knifes or even forks in the house as he would stab out at us. How a spoon could hurt! I had forgotten, not completely, but enough to start my guilt trip of ‘Have I done the right thing moving?’ ‘Have I taken away his opportunities?’ She reminded me life is not perfect but we are all better and happier people for the move and the slower pace of life! That is why this blog got called ‘Life in the slow lane’ because that has been the best thing we did.
Nothing like a well aimed kick up the ass by someone who knows what things were like, and where things could have gone! Who said our kids can’t teach us anything!
So ever onwards and maybe just a little more on the ‘Chill, he will get there when he is ready!’

Chat sites that are for Asperger’s

I was looking at ways for my son to start to make friends or share with others his interests. I have found these chat sites, which I hope he may try, and thought I would share them with you.

http://www.aspergersteenchat.com/
This seems a good site for teens to chill out and make friends. The rules are good and clear as well as offering good advice to teens using the chat site.

http://www.wrongplanet.net/forums.html
This is a big site with blogs, chat rooms and forums. There are books and a shop. As it is big, it may take longer to get used to using but a great place with many things to do.
If you have any other ideas or know of good chat site, please share with me, and we can build a host of options for others to use and find easily.

Then I thought should I be doing this? I seem to put in a ton of hours trying to help, but does my son even want help? Now that is a good question!

Odd seems to be the normal for now.

My poor son has just got a cold on top of a cold! and he has just started to get over this one, and then had a really bad cold or flu! the problem is he hates tablets and will not have cough medicine, throat sweets, or steam! so we get one ill person, who I wish just for once (for his health) would take anything to help. So we have been bouncing around colds for over a month now. He gets a bit better and down he goes again.
I now have him on really fresh homemade soups (that gets the vegetables into him!) balanced of other things and just trying to build up his poor body’s resistance to the colds! Yes, I am getting him to dress warmly, but getting some fresh air. He now will allow a vapour rub so that is good.
So if any of you out there have any useful tips or ideas of what I can do to help, please let me know!

How to help someone else have self-motivation ?

I would love to hear from others on how to self motivate. Where do you start? You see the thing I am thinking is that my son lacks this really important area of self-development. If I nag or talk him into it, things get done, but the minute I stop he goes back to the same old same old!
He is 19 now, and I am not getting any younger! I worry about what the future holds for him. He just can’t stay the same for ever. I am his only support, and this is the disadvantage of living in a country where there is no help at all for him. To even find a therapist we are talking about a drive of an hour each way, which I would do but something he will not do.
I know that I could be over worrying but as a Mum, I do. I just can’t get him to see that some things have to change. I always believed that for true change to happen, it has to be by their own thought process, not just a supported change but one that holds value and enables you to go forward has to be from within. I do think we have to support that change to happen, even with a lot of help, but for real change it should be taken on and continued by them.
What do you think? Drop a comment and let me know.
I do get so worried about this!

Book review for a new book about Aspergers/ ASD

I have read the book
‘I Think I Might Be Autistic’ By Cynthia Kim
You can buy a copy as well as read some really helpful posts and information at
Musingsofanaspie.com
In a nut shell this is her story about that huge minefield of getting a diagnosis on the autism spectrum and in sharing her journey of self discovery, and learning about herself with acceptance. One thing you need to know is this is about adults and predominately for adults that are starting to look at themselves and where they may fit or if a label is beneficial for them.
This book has another use, and that is for children who have been labelled on the autism spectrum, in childhood and as older teens to young adults need to discover this journey for themselves. It can be easy for us parents to say ‘Yes, you have Asperger’s’ but to confirm this independently is I think important to the acceptance of who you are. Young adults need to understand their own skills, strengths, and weakness to gain independence and self understanding.
The book offers quick references and tells you where you can seek out additional information.
There is some medical jargon but Cynthia Kim has kept it short and to the point as well as offering the reader what it means in plain English.
So yes, this is a lovely well written asset to anyone seeking answers to the question of ‘Am I autistic?’ offering places to seek information and sharing some great reflective thoughts on ways forward and in just starting to love who you are.